If I would let myself tell you

If I would let myself tell you

Where I’ve come and gone

If I would let myself tell you

How far I have run

If I would let myself tell you

Where I now stand

Then maybe, just maybe

You can tell me you understand.

If I would let myself tell you

About my hidden, darkened fears

If I would let myself tell you

Of my struggles through the years

If I would let myself tell you

My joy of breaking through

Then maybe you could see

Why I continue as I do.

If I would let myself tell you

Of the battles in my heart

If I would let myself tell you

What shatters me apart

If I would let myself tell you

How fragile I can be

Then maybe you see

Why I want to escape and just be free.

If I would let myself tell you

Why I struggle with each word

If I would let myself tell you

How I am scared of being heard

If I would let myself tell you

That I wish I could let go

Then maybe you could help me

Because then you would know.

If I would let myself tell you

Then all this could disappear

If I would let myself tell you

Then you’d see me crystal clear

If I would let myself tell you

Then at least my tears would flow

Just maybe, maybe now

I will allow you to know.